It is more difficult to get something to move from a standstill, than it is to keep something moving.
I don’t remember much from my Physics days, sadly, but the few things that I do, usually are tied to a higher meaning in my mind. This is one of them.
After a very dynamic year, my life has come to a stop in the past few weeks. Facilitated by the lethargic month of August in Italy, I have certainly relaxed and prepared mentally for the challenges ahead. At the same time, I have stopped. That mental and physical inertia is something that you enjoy at first, but can be rather cumbersome over prolonged periods of time.
To start again, I will need to apply a greater force on myself than the one needed in June (at the time of my previous post). Some of that force will be needed to re-gain that sense of hope and possibility that I enjoyed, while working on my Formula 4 project.
Because of many reasons, and as you probably guessed by the tone of this post, that dream has not come true. Too many things went wrong, some of them were certainly my fault, some others were just a case of “in the wrong place, at the wrong time”.
I’ve learned from that experience, however, and it’s not something that I won’t be ready to pick up again, when the time and people are right.
The people. As the great Michael Scott said, it’s the people who are the biggest asset of any company, especially when that company is just an idea. Not only of any company, but dare I say, also in our lives.
I thought I could make it all on my own, and I was wrong. I counted on a few people to follow through on what they told me, but they didn’t. In the end, it was a deadly combination of the two things that brought me to the point where I am now.
Luckily, there is no rest for the wicked. And so I go on, looking forward to the next chapter in my professional and personal life. A life that is not as much “rovering” as I thought it would be, at least for now. But that’s OK, plenty of other things to look forward to.
As the sun of my 20s is setting on the horizon of my life, I can look back and enjoy the memories. At the same time, I need to shake this inertia away from me, and focus on what will bring me forward in the next 10 years of my life.
Now I’m left with a few days before going back to work. To explore new possibilities, see where I will actually end up living, understand what professional path will make sense for me, try and pick up a healthy lifestyle.
In the past, I’ve always liked the feeling of a chapter “closing” in my life. It means a new one is starting. The good news is that I’m still holding the pen and will be able to write it.
Even though the disappointment for how things have developed after my MBA will sting for a while, it will be crucial to funnel that feeling of anger into something that will propel me into the next years.
And, why not, live life a little. Motorsport is not only about working in the field. It’s about racing, and racing is what matters eventually, what I enjoy.
To try and find a balance between all these things won’t be easy. But nothing has come easy recently, so at least we have that going for us.
We just need to get that ball rolling, even if its inertia seems an insormountable obstacle to overcome. It can be done.
It has to be done.